And for sure we have danced
In the risk of each other
Would you like to dance
around the world with me.
Those were lyrics from the first dance song at our wedding. He said it’d mean a lot to him to select our forever song and I was so surprised when I heard that tune. In my opinion, those words would you like to dance around the world with me are incredibly dreamy. To me, those lyrics mean committing to forever together. To willingly choose to go wherever life takes us on this journey and to make the best of anything we are handed. Back then, we had grandiose dreams of our future. I think that’s normal for most couples, especially on their wedding day. I pictured many travels and fulfilling jobs and a renovated home filled with babies. Oh, I also pictured us both having killer abs, but that’s beside the point.
Neither of us could have predicted what was next in our story. When we found out we couldn’t conceive naturally, I never anticipated the long road ahead. I didn’t anticipate the little things I’d discover about my husband along the way either. Like, he has this incredibly positive outlook on life. It was impossible to be down and out around him, he always sees the light. He also retains medical information like a champ. There were times when the doctor rambled on and on and I was furiously taking notes while Steve just sat there, remembering every word, diagnosis and treatment.
My favorite discovery though, was very much unexpected. In the early mornings and the late nights of hormone stimulation, there he was. Mixing and measuring meds. Injecting my abdomen with two different syringes. Inserting large needles filled to the brim with progesterone into my butt and massaging me before he had a long day at work. Calming my nerves when I moaned in pain. He was fully clothed and we were both half asleep but I remember laying there one time thinking, this is the sexiest he’s ever been. If you asked me years before, this SO wasn’t my idea of sexy but now, it’s my truest feeling. I imagine I’ll feel the same way whenever he holds our children but up until now, this tops my list.
So here we are, dancing around the world together. It just looks a little different than we imagined. It’s still just as fulfilling, just as loving and may I say, a little bit sexier than I ever thought possible.